I hate bullying. I wish it was never on this planet to begin with, but it is and all of us have been through it in one way or another. I know I’ve been through it, so here’s my story on how I’ve been bullied and how I’ve been through peer pressure and how I’ve been mean to people because of being bullied.
First, I’m going to start out with how I was bullied. When I was little of course the bullying wasn’t really bad. People would just talk about my hair and how funny it looked and how fast I talked. You know when your little you just really leave that stuff behind because your so little you have no idea what they’re talking about.But then it got worse when I was 8 or 9. Girls would always take advantage of me just because I was nice and they were all mean. I never liked to get into an argument, but apparently they loved to. One day it really got out of hand. One of the girls asked me to bring out something and I really didn’t want to but I did so I brought some stuff out to play with. I had this red bracelet and the one girl said “I’ve always wanted a bracelet like that.”, then she said “The manager was supposed to give this to me”. Then all of a sudden she had took off with it and her and the other girl were passing it back and forth then finally the other girl said “Here you go”. I felt so stupid. What did I do to deserve this? Nothing! When I went in the house to put my stuff away I’d told my mom about everything that happened and she said “You aren’t bringing anything else outside and I said “Okay.” I was so happy! I didn’t have to bring anything else out again! But things didn’t get much better after that.
One day I was walking and talking with one of my friends and this one girl said “Not to be mean but your kinda of dressing like a hooker.” I couldn’t believe what she said I was in complete shock. First of all I didn’t even know what the word “hooker” meant but second of all I didn’t even look like a hooker. When I went in the house I told my mom about what happened and she told me what “hooker” meant and she thought the whole thing was stupid! I felt like my life was getting worse and worse everyday. It seemed like life at school was smooth sailing but when I would go home everything was like hitting an iceberg. But it seemed like most of the people I couldn’t stand moved or I just didn’t speak to them. To me it was a sign. It was over!!!!!
Now I’m going to talk about peer pressure. Last year when I was in the 5th grade and I would hang out with my friends friend who was popular and everybody loved her and I wanted to be popular so I did everything in my power to be popular just like her. She would always wear nice clothes so I would try to look nice too and all the boys adored her and I bet not one boy even liked me. With her being popular it just seemed like I was never good enough for anyone.Sometimes I literally just wanted to die! But around the end of the year I realized that I was probably not going to be popular and that I just had to be myself because well everybody else is taken. So what if I’m not popular and you know that’s okay. As long as I’m living and have my awesome friends and family with me I think I’ll be okay.
Now I’m going to talk about how bullying and peer pressure have gotten me into a bad attitude. In the 5th grade I would always be mean to people. I would hit them to be funny and of course they didn’t like it. But to be honest I was taking my anger out on the wrong people.It just felt like the whole world was against me and I was mad at my self. A lot of the girls at my school were skinny and I’m not fat I’m just not skinny so I felt like an outcast. I’m still dealing with some of my demons. I don’t hit people anymore. I’m a lot nicer to people. But sometimes I look at my stomach and it gets on my nerves. But I don’t let it bother me because at the end of the day I’m beautiful. Sometimes I do care about how I look.Thinking that someone may bully me because of it but then I realize they probably don’t even care so why make such a big deal out of it.
These are all of the crazy things that have happened to me. It’s been for the better because it taught me how to stand up for myself. But it was for the worse because well you can already see what happened. Nobody should be bullied ever it’s just not fair. What did that person do to you? Nothing! Everyone is a work in progress so don’t hurt them for your own personal gain. I hope this article helps somebody, but if it doesn’t I’m just glad I got to write this story.
“People are just afraid of what’s different. That don’t mean different is bad. Just means different is different.” From the book “My Louisiana Sky”.
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